Tuesday, 6 November 2012 07:19 ♥
Believe you can and you're halfway there.
Hi there. Today I took three papers which were History, Mathematics and Kemahiran Hidup. I've worked my ass off but sometimes things that we want don't just immediately appear. When I was doing Math, I started from the last question to the first. The last questions from 30 to 40 got me like asdfghjkl. I could barely answer all of them so I left 10 questions. I got no watch and yes that is something that should not happen to a student who is about to take an important test but no can do and I had no idea that the time was almost over so I got chillax and my head was spinning so I rested. Then the teacher said 'put your pen down' and I couldn't even take a single breathe because of my legit panic. I freaked out and panicked and I eventually asked my friend the answers and yes I was cheating but that happened urgently. The teacher just literally stared at me and sort of scolded me. You know how I feel when someone raises her voice towards me when I'm weak. Yeah I could just cry but I said to myself 'stay strong' on this stupid paper. Then the teacher told me to just answer what I thought the best and I couldn't do that. Seriously, I could have just failed the test if I answered the wrong answers. And besides, this is the final examination. I swore to myself I can't do that. If I can't answer the question, I will even guess what's the best and what I can remember. For short, I will just think logically aaannnnddd she wanted me to just guess the wrong answer? Heck no. I swear to myself that I don't want to be in that condition anymore. I seriously burst my tears and let them all stream down tickling my cheeks. The only person I wanted to hug and tell everything that time was my mom. I couldn't count on my friends and mother knows best. All I hope for now is, hoping the best from Allah and I will try to accept whatever result I will get. I mean no. I mean, ugh. I don't know but hey, believe you can and you're halfway there. Yes, if I believe that I can, then that means I will work even harder and I'm halfway to my dream. I'm not good at this. You know what I mean. Well uhm I just hope for the best among the best for myself. I hope so. Please do pray for me if you're having a leisure time. Pahala pahala. Lol whatever. I'm worried to death right now about my result. *Deep sigh* Insya-Allah my upcoming result can at least satisfy me a little bit. I guess I will stop for now. Bye.
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Sunday, 4 November 2012 01:11 ♥
So I'm having a sort of
Wait, not 'sort of' because it really is. This is the exam which ensure my class for next year. I really want to make a big improvement on my education. I used to be a lack of effort person in chasing dream. For example I want to get straight As for next exam but I really don't work for it. Well that's called hopeless dream. I'm not sure if I can use the word 'used to' because I am not that stud right now but I can see a little improvement in myself this month. I'm awaiting for my result for this final exam. I am educated in
SMK(A) Naim Lilbanat and since this school is already declared as the high educated school, then I have to be a stud like other students in this school. I must fit in this kind of atmosphere. I'm 13 years old and you know fitting in new school and being a junior is some kind of awkward thing to be served out right? I had a really great time when I was in primary school especially when I have passed the most big test that will specify my secondary school, UPSR. I got 5As for that. *Act humble*. I got two chooses for my future secondary school just in case if I don't get one, I will go to another. My selections are whether to SMK(A) Naim Lilbanat or SMK Zainab I. I got offered to go to Zainab and yay for me but my mom wanted me to go to Naim because my sister used to be one of it's students and she is such a genius liddat yanno duh. Then I got Naim. Here I am now and for your information I have a lot of rivalries to be fought with. That's why I'm working my ass off to get a great result so I can get my parents proud and also for myself. Today I took Bahasa Melayu and Pendidikan Islam. They weren't that hard but I'm not being over-confident here and I just hope the best for myself. I don't care how marks I get for those 9 subjects, all I care is having 9As. InsyaAllah. Tomorrow I have to take three papers which are English, Geography and Science. Phew, if I'm saying to myself that I have to solicit a great achievement, then I have to make efforts for that and now I'm going to enjoy the moving particles in my Science book so uhm gotta go. I really hope that wishing me good luck is already in your pleasure and it is my big big big honor to thank you guys for that lol. Bye!
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